Thursday, August 26, 2010

Mixed Emotions with US results....

Well, we went to our ultrasound on Monday with Dr. R. I was so excited to get to see our baby girl and all was going well with the ultrasound until Dr. R said, "Ok, I'm going to freak you out for a second, but then everything will be ok. Now, this isn't something that's going to prevent her from being able to run, jump, swim, or play..."

And that's when my heart dropped out of my chest. It's her brain. What's wrong with her brain?

He went on to say that she has a small choroid plexus cyst, and this is often just a part of brain development, that either goes away by 28 weeks or hangs around and never causes any problems. It's been seen in 70 year old adults and was there their whole lives without consequence. The problem with seeing it in a fetus, is that it can be related to Trisomy 18. That's the one that's not compatible with life. As soon as he said that, my mind went into NICU mode and I knew that those babies don't survive and so I started panicking on the inside and wondering if my little one would be like those babies.

I held it together somehow in front of the doctor and although his word were, "This is NOT something to worry about, I promise. Everything else is normal, she does NOT have Trisomy 18. It will go away and everything will be fine." Yeah right. As soon as he left, I excused myself to the bathroom (Carlos was with me) and I burst into tears. Dr. R must have known, because several minutes later, he was standing outside my door as if he knew I was going to have a melt down in spite of his words. He once again, reassured me that this a normal variant of development, and not to worry. Through bawling tears, I asked him if I can buy baby stuff or not. He said OF COURSE. So we had made an appointment for 4 weeks to follow up, and he offered to look again in 2 weeks so he can show me AGAIN that she's fine. So, I'm down to see him on the 7th.

I have asked the neonatologists I work with as well as my OB (who called today because she knew I would be freaking out), and everyone has assured me not to worry. She said Trisomy 18 is "not even on (her) radar" for me. The other neonatologist (who is my favorite) said the current articles about these cysts are about whether it is ethical to even tell parents about them because they freak parents out for no reason. YEP, it did! I wish he wouldn't have even told me. Ignorance really is bliss sometimes!

So, for now, I feel much better about it with all the research I've read and opinions of experienced doctors. If they say not to worry, I won't. So I'm buying baby furniture tomorrow. :-)

If you're a follower of this blog (all two of you), please lift up a prayer or two for my little one to make sure the cyst resolves and is not an indicator of ominous things. I have to have faith on this one or I'll drive myself crazy. It's in HIS hands. He made her perfect in his sight, and I believe He will take care of her.

Thank you!!

Off to bed to rest this weary brain. Will update with the next sono if not sooner!

Kristina
XOXO

Monday, August 16, 2010

One More Week!!

Well, I went to the OB doctor today to check the baby's heart rate, pee in a cup, etc, and all seems to be going well. My uterus is about the size of a cantaloupe and the baby is the size of an onion! Wow! It's weird, I can feel this melon ball in my belly right under my belly button now. It's all hard and weird!! I can't help but want to poke it!

My OB also said that I should be feeling movements in the next 3 weeks or so, but I think I am feeling them already. They feel like little bumps and I feel it most when I am laying down or sitting in a chair or the car when my belly is scrunched up. I would think if it's gas, then gas would soon follow, but it doesn't. Hmm... My OB didn't seem to believe that it's movement, even though they say it can start at 14 weeks. We'll see in a few weeks if that's what it was. It's weird, I also feel it more when I listen to hard rock in my car. Maybe she likes the bass??

Also, a week from today, I get another ultrasound, which I am TOTALLY excited about. We'll get to see if she stays a SHE or not. I think she will. We just have to come up with a name that we can stick to if it's a girl. We think we have one so far, but there's always someone who doesn't like it, so it's hard not to be swayed!

In other news, my friend Amy is having a BOY! What did I say? We knew it a long time ago! So Little Miss will have a built in boyfriend! Carlos said, "what if they grow up and hate each other and you two have their wedding planned already?!" Not gonna happen! We'll MAKE them like each other! LOL!

Well, if you're interested, I posted pics of the belly progression on my photobucket page. Just go to (copy and paste, my hyperlink's not working): http://s658.photobucket.com/albums/uu301/Nursekris84/

It's not that big right now, it seems that she's laying more WIDE than straight out. Thanks, baby!! Just what I wanted, to look WIDER! I tell ya, this pregnancy thing ain't for sissies. To watch your ass widen, your thighs get bigger, your belly turn to jiggle and then a potbelly...why did I want this again?! She better be a good kid!!


Alright, that's all for now. I need to go do some wifely duties around the house. Talk soon!

Kristina

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Long time no see!

Well hello again. I'm back! I seem to have disappeared for a few weeks! Whoops. Still new to this blog thing, and I locked myself out somehow, but now all is good!

To update for the time missed, we had good news that all the chromosomal tests came back normal! Nothing to worry about there so far. Our risk for Down's Syndrome and Trisomies 13 and 18 seem to be VERY low. That's a good thing. Praise God! With all the sick ones I take care of at work, I get so scared, and just pray for the health of this little peanut.

In other news, it seems I am starting to show. This week we are 16 weeks (4 months) along, and the bump has made its debut! It's not too noticable unless I eat a big meal or don't drink enough water, but its definitely there. I'll get some pics up soon. Apparantly, this week, Little Miss is the size of an avocado or a turnip (two different websites). She can now hear our voices and is growing eyelashes and hair! Time to break out the Baby Mozart! I added a visual aid of fruit that we go by at the top of the page.

Well, that's about all I really have for now about the baby. She's going to continue to grow in there, and hopefully I can talk my OB into a gender confirmation ultrasound before our next perinatologist appointment at almost 21 weeks! That's way too long to wait! My friend Amy gets to go on Tuesday, so we'll see what she's having. For the recond, I think it's a boy! We'll see if I'm right. This little princess needs a Prince Charming!

Oh, and we're going to Boston again for our LATE 1st anniversary trip and also as a last trip before our family expands. I hope she likes cold weather like her mama does! I'm so excited!!! Woo hoo!!!

That's all for now folks. Talk soon!


Kristina